Friday, August 13, 2010

Into the Emerald Dream

EDIT: Sorry guys, until I reactivate the blog, comments are locked. This will keep me from having to police the comments for spam until then. If you need to contact me, please use 4haelz AT gmail DOT com. ♥

If you notice the blog template has changed, that is not a sign that 4Haelz is coming back, but rather that the other template was broken and I still have some pride with what I leave behind.


I know I have said for a while that once things slowed down, I would start reporting on the beta and testing things.

Unfortunately, it won't happen.

4 Haelz is closing. My time with WoW is over. Maybe temporarily, most likely permanently.

If it was just boredom with the current game, that could easily be overcome through my access to the beta. But I haven't logged into Cataclysm except twice since I got it. It holds no appeal.

I just recently got a job as a TSS (Therapeutic Staff Support), working with kids who have behavior and/or mental problems. Besides this, there are many different aspects of life I want to explore, including improving my art (two of the pieces in my gallery have Mature Content filters on them; i.e. NSFW) so I can perhaps take on more commissions such as what I do for BRK, actually sit down to write the book ideas I've had forever, whether or not they go anywhere publicly, and volunteer more at the animal shelter until (and probably after) I can afford to have my own dog. I also need to find another job, as my TSS position is only part time. I just recently purchased car insurance on my own policy for the first time, and paid to have the title of my car (that I am terrified will now break down spontaneously) into my own name.

I'm becoming an adult (or something similar), and frankly it is as terrifying as it is exciting. I just don't have the time, or inclination, to play WoW, and stringing you guys along saying how I'll get to it just isn't fair to either of us. Not fair to you because you wait for it, and not fair to me because then I'm forcing myself to play a game due to expectations I created.

My account has actually been canceled for nearly a month and a half, and I haven't been playing for longer. I wrestled with closing the blog, because I have possibly enjoyed writing in here as much as I had playing the game. When I received the beta, I had hoped it would rekindle things so I wouldn't have to close it. Then my guild collapsed, my friends transferred, and my boyfriend quit WoW immediately after I did. I felt the pull less and less.

It is sad for me, really. I played this game for nearly three and a half years without any account cancellations or real breaks. In that time I made a lot of friends, a few enemies, a couple creepy stalkers, and managed to become a trusted source of information and advice (who occasionally screwed up). I will really miss it.

I'll still be around on Twitter as @Bellbell, I'll still have my 4haelz AT gmail DOT com e-mail. You ever feel like chatting, hit me up. I've said before; I'm pretty friendly, and at the moment I just moved to the middle of the woods. I'm gonna attempt to be regular again about updating my RL blog, but that sounds super boring to you guys, I'm sure. My home life is unfortunately not a high flying adventure, QQ.

Who knows, maybe this isn't forever. Maybe I'll get the itch again and I'll have the time to scratch it, and Bellwether will romp through the plains of Azeroth. But, until that day, I will hibernate in the Emerald Dream, as all Druids eventually do.

Love you guys.

26 comments:

Ratshag said...

There is three or four really awesomilicious things what have come out of me years of adventuring and blogging. Being yer friend was the first.

Keredria said...

Bell, awmigawd the trees are sooooo going to miss you!

Best of luck with everything. <3

Poneria said...

:( Sad to see you go (for now). I hope the Emerald Dream is pleasant, and none of those nasty Emerald Nightmares. :)

jeffo said...

The very best of luck to you, Bell. Enjoy this new phase of your life!

Icedragon said...

Is this just a setback? TELL ME IT'S JUST A SETBACK AND YOU'LL RETURN! WE ARE NOT PREPARED FOR THIS!

*weeping willow face*

Moonra said...

There are a lot of people that will miss you but I wish you the best in RL, you can turn it into an adventure as well :)

Sephrenia said...

All the very best. You will be missed. Very missed. *sniff*

Nightwhisp said...

Bell:
You have been such a big help, thank you friend! Night Elves live forever and so you shall, Your real life is tugging you away but the never never land of wow will always be there should you wish to come play with us trees that never grow up.

Good luck with the many things that RL will present in the near future and indeed we will see you a gain one fine day, but I think I hear Dreamwalker calling, "I have opened a portal into the dream. . ."

Love you Bell,
Nightwhisp

Emybloom said...

<3

Forreststump (in hibernation) said...

<3

The Emerald Dream is nice. But the itch... oooooohhhh, the itch.

I'm not a superstitious person by nature. There is one exception: Friday the 13th. I'd been wondering when something bad was going to happen.

...and here it is.

Kayeri said...

Well, I told you the posts would roll in, and here I am watching it happen. Setting up for your adult life is important, and you need to focus on that. Whether or not you decide to return to Azeroth, I hope you will take away the knowledge of the many, many druids you have helped and influenced over your years in the game, myself among them.

From a young, fresh, pretty clueless resto druid at level 70, I have come a long way to a decent raid healer who has downed every raid boss in current content. You and Phae started that path for me, and I will forever be grateful for both of you for it.

So as you face those fresh, young faces you will help, just remember the large numbers you have helped so much already, and keep going forward. Still hope to see you around and hear of your new adventures.

Kay

Littlebark said...

I know the feeling, Bell <3 You're voice will be missed in the forest.

Sending good vibes your way!

Hana said...

Good Bellbell. :) I'll still follow you on Twitter, and if you have any inclination to pursue your writing or art, definitely do it! It's so rewarding when you see your work in print.

Miss Medicina said...

You will be missed!

But being an adult is also very exciting, and so is doing adulty things, which are way more important.

Hopefully we will still see plenty of you on twitter!!!

<3

Lath said...

Best of luck with everything! Who needs Cataclysm when you have your very own RL expansion happening from the sounds of things :)

Niniel said...

Good luck with everything! <3

Figworth said...

Don't know if I've ever commented before, but always enjoyed reading. Good luck!

Pike said...

I try not to admit my "faves" very often, on principle, but I gotta say it... your blog was one of my faves.

Definitely quit if it's not fun for you anymore. That's what I did and I eventually came back feeling better about things. If you don't come back, that's fine too. We can be RL Blog Buddies together. *fist bump*

See you on Twitter! <3

Armond said...

You shall be poked on MSN. Somehow you managed to get yourself removed from my contacts, or I would have poked you sooner.

Ophelie said...

So sorry to see you go! You've been such a pillar in the healing blogging community that it just doesn't seem right without you.

Take care in the real world! I'd wish you good luck, but with your talent and personality, you won't need it.

ps. Your job sounds amazing! I'm jealous!

Angelya said...

Aw Bell.. thanks for everything you have done for the bloggy community! We've already been missing you. Enjoy whatever projects you get up to next, and catch you on Twitter <3

scott said...

Take care of yourself Belle.

Beruthiel said...

I'm a bit late here - but I still wanted to wish you good luck in your future endeavors! There is nothing quite like realizing that you are now on your own, it's only natural to want to take time to explore and enjoy that!

We will certainly miss you!

LarĂ­sa said...

Awww.
So our shared path ended here. It's been great to follow you and best of luck out there.

hugs!

Bonsai said...

I have been reading your blog ever since my druid dinged the big 80 mark and decided to try out tree for the first time. You were a great source of information and help to a little nub tree who had problems making sense of big numbers and infomation overload at EJ.

Thank you for the all that you have done for the past years. And good luck with the Adult Life Boss(es)! And pooch ownership!

Rest well, fellow Druid!

Anolaana said...

What!? How!? :(

It's always sad to see an amazing blogger go. There are only so many people out there that love sharing their ideas to the world in WoW that they become a unique, close-knit community. I'm definitely sticking to your twitter from now on!

Good luck with finding a job in the big wide world out there. Hopefully something you can pour as much love into as blogging! ;)